I never imagined my brain would tell me I wanted to go home. Early. But, it did that night in Split.
I had 10 days left of my trip. Originally, and for months, I had planned on extending my adventure, heading to Spain (for the sixth time), back to Merida to see my friends and celebrate my birthday on October 1. I had looked at my funds earlier in the day, looked at the cost to get there, looked at the penalties I would face to change my flight, calculated the extra cost of staying in Europe for three more weeks, and realized it was just entirely not going to happen.
Suddenly, my body ached. My mind was exhausted. I craved my family. I craved a good night’s sleep. I craved home. I wanted to be with my mom as she coped with my grandma’s sickness. I wanted to be with my grandma.
I think I’m ready.
Realizing it is time to end the trip of a lifetime was hard for me. I struggled with the idea of ending it — especially early. I had ended my first trip in Europe early (for entirely different reasons) and had promised myself I would return and do the trip right the next time.
This adventure was my do-over.
And now, my do-over was starting to wear me thin.
I called my Dad.
“I want to come home. I want to be with my family. This is so hard to be away from home. I want to see grandma.”
“D,” he said quietly, “There is no guarantee that when you get home she will still be here.”
“I know,” I said, fighting back tears, “But I at least want to try.”
I messaged friends.
“Are you sure you want to come home early?” They all asked the same question.
I called United and engaged in a three-hour long battle over changing my ticket.
Then, around 9 p.m., it was set.
I was coming home. Four days early. Which wasn’t much, but I hoped it would get me back in time to see my grandma. I told Dad not to let Mom know about my arrival. Together, we plotted a surprise arrival and I could hardly sleep that night knowing how happy my mom would be when I walked through the front door four days early.
During my epic fight with United, Katie messaged me from Trogir.
“Come up here!” she urged. “Meet me tomorrow and we can go to Zadar together!”
I was going to say no, then I looked around me.
I don’t want to be in Split anymore. I want to be with Katie. I want my friend back. I NEED a friend.
So, I agreed.
The next morning, after nearly oversleeping and power-walking to the bus stop in Split, I was reunited with Katie for the third time in as many weeks.