The first time I tried on the little silver Fossil necklace adorned with 3-dimensional dove, the chain broke in my hand.
I wanted it so badly. I had been given a $25 gift card to Macy’s and was browsing the inexpensive jewelry, looking for something to symbolize the wanderlust I was feeling (cause, you know, a cheap piece of jewelry can so do that).
And there it was, attached to the flimsy plastic/cardboard holder with one word written all pretty on it:
Marketed by the marketing gods so perfectly to me.
But, when it broke, I thought it was an omen. Somehow, the necklace was telling me my dreams of traveling would not happen. I let the person at the counter know the chain simply fell apart in my hand, placed it back on the counter, and returned to my job following the hour I took for lunch.
Weeks later, after being blessed by my parents to live my dream of traveling, I ended up going back to Macy’s and buying a not-broken version of the dove necklace, securing it proudly around me neck.
For weeks, it was my security blanket. I had booked my trip to Europe, but had not told anyone at work. When work got tough or I grew frustrated (and there were many, many times) and I just wanted to shout out I was leaving right then and there, my fingers to the dove and I would move them over the tiny bird and its grooved eye, swishing it up and down the chain. And, when I needed a reminder of what I was doing, the dreams I had, the goal that was justrighttherebutnotyet, I would hold the dove and close my eyes.
The necklace came to stand for everything I looked forward to. It symbolized the person I was, the person I was becoming, the dreams I had. When people at work said they liked it, I would smile and thank them, thinking to myself, if you only knew what it means.
Since I left my job, this freedom has truly become realized. It is an indescribable feeling to wake up and do whatever it is I want to do. To hope on the tube and head to Westminster. To decide to go to Ireland for St. Patrick’s Day. To book a flight to Madrid.
And, with this new feeling comes a new attitude. I can do anything I set my mind to because I am FREE. It’s a beautiful thing.